But if it is bad, as doctor for help. I think that helped. But, I will say this, as I draw on eyebrows in the morning and glue on eye lashes and adjust my scarf or wig, I look in the mirror and I say; YOU look mahvelous! Side note; how are you doing/feeling? It's been a rough start to 2017. It is important that you and your husband inform his doctor of changes in his mood to rule out any medical causes. ... My consultant told me that my hair would start to fall out a few days before the start of my second cycle of chemo and of course he was spot on. Just have to be prepared for the emotional roller coaster. As if by some strange magic I woke up on Monday morning, had a shower and lots of my hair started to fall out. Sometimes steroid dosage can be reduced. They are, however, a necessary evil for some situations. Anger evoked by a cancer diagnosis is no different from anger that arises in any other crisis, such as after the loss of a loved one. Not because I receive chemotherapy – I wish I could in his stead – but because the first thing I see every morning when I go to the kitchen to prepare some coffee is this: You may ask “what the hell is this guy talking about” but reading the following and similar articles about the concept of time, helped me to cope with the immense pain and despair i went through when i thought that i could lose my son. I must have missed something. A beast which targets only 1.1 percent of the kids according to the statistics of American Cancer Society? A. Bloody chemo. In other words, you become more of what you already are. I know when I was on chemo, I had more than my fair share of the adult version of temper tantrums to the point where my best friend said if she didn't know I was a Christian, she would think I wasn't one. ( Log Out /  We had some tough news regarding a job interview but I let him vent and wallow and I think that helped. Holy, he turned into a pyscho maniac, Dr confirmed it was the eye drops. Because I can. Can’t wait! I found myself just going into my bed room and shutting the door. It's just about being patient and praying and holding onto hope. It's a whole long backstory but suffice to say that another seasoned teacher was also not offered a contract along with a few other. We were hit with two big blows right after Christmas. But “the loved ones” the above excerpt refers to, and indeed “the loving ones”? I hate them. It is called “chemo rage”: “Anger is a completely reasonable response to cancer and the many difficulties it brings. I didnt know your husband was having roid rage too! My husband took Dexamethasone with his first dose of chemo for 3 days after chemo. Chemo isn't easy for the patient, nor is it easy for the caregiver. Change ), You are commenting using your Facebook account. Integer posuere erat a ante venenatis dapibus posuere velit aliquet. Google tells you that personality change is not an uncommon side effect of chemotherapy. Yes they are. Not at all snappy or angry. It upsets me that I get so mad. It's an important cancer medicine. Its such a rollercoaster of  journey. Chemo Day itself is the pits. Signs of Roid Rage There are several giveaways when a person is suffering from roid rage. Who took Dexamethasone and had symptoms of what I call 'roid rage? Husband's rage came about 3 or 4 days after chemo like clock work. It is a temporary situation that will slowly resolve over the next few months. No pressure I only have … I had a friend whose husband at the time was prescribed eye drops with something like that in them. It's been a tough road but I feel like our luck is about to change. Good luck. So not only is he fighting this crappy diesease, he's still trying to secure a teaching position for the fall. It worked like a dream! :) When I'm on prednisone for asthma and bronchitis I am full of energy so much so that sleeping is tough. On the contrary… I avoid trouble, because I am already troubled. When you think about steroids, the first image that comes to mind may be of a hulked-out bodybuilder or athlete with muscles for days and perhaps a smidge of “roid rage” hanging in an angry cloud over them. It is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Your doctor is actually talking about cortisol, a form of steroid that your body produces naturally. I am forever deeply grateful and appreciative for all the love and support from everyone in my personal and professional life! Cras mattis consectetur purus sit amet fermentum. But for some people, their cancer treatment is accompanied by a sudden, uncharacteristic increase in irritability, angry outbursts, and even aggressive behaviour. That was the week that I don't like to think of. That's what I mean. Pain means it works”. I'm always here to listen and maybe offer helpful info. Have a good day tomorrow! Here is my new question for you all to possibly ponder. It may even become worse before it gets better. Thank you. Here, the auto transplant is standard. “We are killing nerve cells. The combination of being worn down by radiation, chemo a la mode and job security stress would make me  pretty ugly to deal with as well. The content on this site is for informational purposes only. I really don’t like it. That was the week that I don't like to think of. I haven't really mentioned the teaching thing so much. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called ‘roid rage). But if your doctor prescribed a steroid as part of your cancer treatment, don't worry. I am speaking about steROIDS, not hemorRHOIDS, to set the record straight. Tomorrow (Tuesday, 6/8), I go in for my fourth round on my way to a total of sixteen weekly treatments. From the WebMD Archives. The pain is part of the process. This should have been a day of celebration for at least four reasons: 1. But how do you explain this to your little one who asks his mother, while the doctor tries to explain the process, whether he will die of cancer? ( Log Out /  with confidence, not aggression. but I want to give you a big virtual ((HUG)) My husband is still a few weeks away from starting treatment, but I am trying to mentally prepare myself for the upcoming changes that will occur. So far, physically I'm not too bad - not as bad as last time anyway. Chemo (Week 3) – Roid Rage arrives. He is taking it to combat the nausea of chemo, I believe . Chemo rage Anger is a completely reasonable response to cancer and the many difficulties it brings. BTW, regardless of nausea, chem makes you feel like %*!@&*. But I know we will do the same amount next chemo time. However, as with all medications, there are side effects to know about. The little one believes in you. No jus ad bellum – the cancer does not consult the UN to wage a “just war”; no jus in bello – the cancer does not follow any rules to minimize pain and suffering. This should have been a day of celebration for at least four reasons: 1. Chemo blues, 'roid rage and anxiety attacks. I had and still do have some of those exact same qualities that your husband is showing. We just keep on moving forward! I live now in a world of ghosts, a prisoner in my dreams.” Ingmar Bergman, The Seventh Seal. I write to vent out my frustration. Please don't get me wrong, in no way am I saying that he doesn't have the right to be tired and frustrated and angry. The best way to describe the symptoms would be "roid rage". I felt ugly, smelly, and like I would never again have the still care free lives my friends and family had. Hang in there. Hah!! Use of this online service is subject to the disclaimer and the terms and conditions. I ate a few pieces of dry rice cereal and slept as much as I could. Instead of cheerleading him on I just let him be. He's better today. It’s like a … One being his job situation and obvioulsy the cancer. My husband is actually done with this chemo. But swallowing just hurts too damn much. But, right before Christmas he found out that the new school that is being built in lieu of the school where he was at was choosing to not offer him a new contract. Then came the diagnosis of cancer. BUt, I know that we will get through this. As part of my recently modified maintenance regimen, I am receiving weekly shots of the chemo drug Velcade, ... And I'll keep riding the roid rage road . I would take That hug and send one your way as well. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called 'roid rage). My husband took Dexamethasone with his first dose of chemo for 3 days after chemo. So this time becuase he had such a hard time and of course because life is just like that, it hit over a weekendthought of a different game plan. I work to distract myself. Here's hoping that the rest of 2017 is full of new adventures and second chances. Good news! Chemotherapy can affect a person’s mood, as can other medications such as steroids. This can be really alarming and upsetting for both the person going through cancer and their loved ones.”, writes a decent website. But yeah, sometimes letting them just be is the best thing to do. Yes, that was the same time frame as my husbands. But if your doctor prescribed steroids as part of your treatment for cancer or another serious illness, don’t worry. Some say “don’t over-dramatize”. I am sorry the steroids are affecting him so much. The green ninjas are going to kill the cancer. He's been at his current school for 24yrs, he's head of the science department and really is (not a wife bias) a well respected and loved teacher. It’s not “that” kind of steroid. To this beast called neuroblastoma? That’s not the purpose of steroid use for cancer treatment, though the weight increase and mood changes can be side effects. Good Luck. The little one does not have chemo rage. After dealing with varying stages for over five years, I was at rope's end. He went to a tennis match today and that definitely is a mid changer Plus they won! The change in his personality may also be a sign that he is still … If scans are clear, he then goes into hospital early may for 48hrs of intensive chemo (prep for stem cell transplant). I did well on my initial pill-form Revlimid Chemo, "roid-rage" Dex Steroids and other supportive meds. Plus, I'm an emotional mess. YOU have helped save my life! I thank all of you for working along with me, and allowing me to continue to lead a semi "normal" life! I am just wondering if this is more the steroids or he is just so tired of this temporary moment in time. Nat Rosen. This cancer gig is a pure mental and physical game changer. But losing your child? He had two job interviews yesterday and instead of being excited that he was asked back for one he was angry that he had to go back. Change ), You are commenting using your Twitter account. Facebook 0 Twitter Pinterest 0 0 Likes. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called ‘roid rage). Hanging in, wish I could eat, as I can still smell! @valentinadeluca Alison: On the eve of my fourth round of chemotherapy, I … I’m not sure exactly how it works, but after I’ve been taking it for a few days I can get irrationally angry quite quickly. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called 'roid rage). You are in war, a war with no rules. I'm glad you told your husband that you are not a doormat. Side Effects. Again, I know that this HAS to change your way of thinking and living. “Of course not”, you say. Now me? Although not all of these side effects may occur, if they do occur they may need medical attention. I attributed that to the chemo and the steroid. On a couple of occasions he became physically violent. And before you know it you're at the last week and you'll be able to say; we are so close to the finish line! Macho factors for sure. But for some people, their cancer treatment is accompanied by a sudden, uncharacteristic increase in irritability, angry outbursts, and even aggressive behaviour. But, he's mad that he has to take pills, he's mad that he has to drink Ensure, he's mad at things that last week were not a big deal. At a low dose for an asthma flare made me almost suicidal. “Don’t refer to him or his case to explain things”, they say. This appears to be a rare or at least unusual complication of anabolic steroid use, and there is speculation that men who are going to abuse testosteronelike steroids already are more likely to have preexisting psychiatric diagnoses. I cleaned the whole house, including waxing the floors, in under 3 hours! Don’t worry, anger does not make one blind or irrational. So now he takes Prilosec. So I can only imagine what's happening inside my husband's body. Bet you wish that would happen to him :). Because I’m alive. Reasons to celebrate Yesterday was Chemo #4. However, his reactions to little things are very blown out of porportion. But sometimes you just need someone to listen. “I want to confess as best I can, but my heart is void. In patients with cancer, corticosteroids, or steroids, can be a part of the cancer treatment or they might be used to help with the side effects of treatment, or even as part of a pain management program. “Pain is good”, says the doctor. He's the one that would remind me that this is temporary and we can get through it. I don’t go around and look for someone to dump my anger. I mentioned earlier that he did have heartburn quite a bit Friday evening and on Sunday. If you really want to help, be silent. It's heaven and then a bit of hell. As Mark Bell from “Bigger, Faster, Stronger” says – an asshole that starts taking steroids is just going to be a bigger asshole. One of the side effects of taking this medication is ‘road rage. Prednisone is a prescribed medication that reduces swelling, irritation, and inflammation in the body for a range of conditions. Nat Rosen. But for some people, their cancer treatment is accompanied by a sudden, uncharacteristic increase in irritability, angry outbursts, and even aggressive behaviour. Roid rage Cancer has given me tattoos and a scar that looks like I lost an encounter with a Samurai, or maybe a shark, or maybe a samurai-wielding shark. The other day I just went upstairs and did my own thing and that helped. I think sometimes people in general take things out on the ones they love the most and need reminders from time to time. Drug information provided by: IBM Micromedex Along with its needed effects, a medicine may cause some unwanted effects. By Rod Moser, PA, PhD August 29, 2011. What happened to his current teaching job? Change ), You are commenting using your Google account. This week she started asking me questions and the next thing I know I have an ocology psychiatrist visiting. Chemo blues, 'roid rage and anxiety attacks Reasons to celebrate Yesterday was Chemo #4. Can you tell that my husband is accruing more and more fun symptoms as we apprach the end of his treatments? Note that this may be typical behavior of someone regardless of whether they are on steroids or not. Last week was doable, really doable. It's not him. I have chemo rage. It's not "that" kind of steroid. Ive had them and they help but man, do they mess with my emotions and body. We even looked into a lawsuit but it would be too much time and money. It is not only him. My indifference to man has shut me out. https://www.wissenschaft.de/technik-digitales/kopfzerbrechen-ueber-die-zeit/. What about the anger they experience? I see my face and feel loathing and horror. I tried to focus on the medicine killing the cancer. My husband has been amazing over these past 6 weeks. Copyright 2000-2019 © Cancer Survivors Network. The void is a mirror. Change ), Katalanlar, Kürtler ve şu gururlu Türkler. But the only way to really become an Ultimate Macho Man is to work at it from the inside, and that means 'roids. I did tell him that he was absolutely free to feel whatever emotion was going on but in no uncertain terms am I his doormat. She determined rather quickly that I was reacting strongly to the steroids. Yes, it'll be trying. As he was already on lorazepam for anxiety, per doctor's instruction we increased his dosage and have no rage since. Who took Dexamethasone and had symptoms of what I call 'roid rage? The race will take place after three days of Cycle 5 of my chemotherapy. He's a good man but he's human too and sometimes we just need to be reminded that the ones we love are here for us but not to be hurt. In fact, you have already witnessed several loved ones losing the battle. ( Log Out /  Now we have a couple of days of flu like symtoms and he is normal and active the rest of the time. For example, steroids can have short … If everything stays on track, I will complete my chemo regimen on August 31st. An excuse? Prednisone and ‘Roid Rage. And although anger is commonly regarded as a negative emotion, it can have advantages for cancer patients. I would be and probably sooner. He seemed better yesterday afternoon. If you don’t kill it, it kills you. Chemo and ‘Roid Rage Narcissists are well-known for faking heart attacks or claiming imaginary ailments, so when a real one comes along….holy crap! This was a shock. It is not only you. You guys are so close to the end! When mine goes through this he stays in his room to avoid yelling at the family. I remember all too well where you are now. Many people who must take steroids will experience some adverse side effects, primarily stimulation or agitation. I know we will make it, but as you attest, there will certainly be trying times. He is too small to feel anger, or to name the feelings he experiences in those terms. But I wish for you a very gentle ride. So this time becuase he had such a hard time and of course because life is just like that, it hit over a weekendthought of a different game plan. . But, what I have noticed is his mood is way off. Some days, I feel impatient and crabby and you really don’t want to put me behind the wheel of the car, because I’ve discovered “roid rage” along with chemo brain. ( Log Out /  “Of course not”, she says. Every week, my chemo nurse asks me a bunch of questions in a conversational way. Hoping the fluids help flush more out of his body. The rage that comes with helplessness, desperation? As you, I found it best to leave him alone with his anger. It only lasts 5 days or so, thank goodness. Only to wake up to more nausea, with more dark circles under the eyes. Please consult your healthcare provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding your condition. This too wil pass. This is good because it means I will be high on hormones, but bad because I will probably be tired as hell. Do not use this information to diagnose or treat a health problem or disease without consulting with a qualified healthcare provider. What the f.ck are you talking about? So is nausea, vomitting, loss of appetite (hence weight), atrophy, numbness – and a “uncomfortable” one at that – and sleep, sleep, sleep. Posted on June 7, 2010 by Ivanna. He snaps at me if I ask him if he is feeling OK. (Roid rage?) 12 min read. Actually, I'm not sure I would necessarily attribute his mood changes to the steroids. It's like it's coming at us all at once from all directions. The word steroid might make you think of "roid rage" or side effects in athletes, weightlifters, and bodybuilders who use them. My legs and back ache and I have manky tax mouth again but this time I have to say that so far the worst side effects are the mental and emotional ones. By NinjaMouf (devianart.com) Even the name of the steroid I take sounds tough. Nat Rosen. “Don’t use him as an excuse”! The addition of job loss, financial loss and cancer treatment is enough to push anyone to the edge. You can sponsor me here. I know it'll pass and I know I have to take care of me too. That thing you call “excuse” is the backdrop to my life, even if vicariously. I am doubly angry when someone hurts me, because anger is the wallpaper of my everyday life. Me and my thoughts without any out side interferance was just what I needed a lot of the time. Not being nauseated after chem, in my opinion, is worth irritability, (within reason of course). But you know that it is not only him. “Of course not”, the doctor says. I adore my gogo juice. I often see this in children taking prednisone for asthma when a quiet little girl suddenly becomes Girl Gone … . All are in their 50's, have masters, etc... so we feel like this is more of ageism & you're too exspensive than "you're not a good teacher." He would get the dose via IV on chemo day, then take the 3 days after, then on Friday go in and get another dose of the steroid via IV, then follow with 2 more days of the oral dosage. If you try to avoid chemo-pain, you will get tumour-pain. I love him and I am here for him but I am still a human and I am going through my own journey during these cancer treatments. They are very helpful, versatile medications that can be effective in a variety of settings and for a many different conditions. Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. No, I don’t expect you to empathize with me – you can’t; I don’t expect you to treat me differently – it won’t help; I certainly don’t want you to pity me – it would an affront to our struggle, to what we have already achieved. There are case reports of men developing out-of-control anger (so-called 'roid rage). I sure do. Absolutely! Chemo Day itself is the pits. When you hear the word steroid you may think of “roid rage” and muscle-bound gym rats with shrunken testicles. 'Roid rage and other stuff **Ranty post alert** I had my fifth chemotherapy treatment on Tuesday - my second Docetaxel. ROID RAGE Ahhhh, steroids, such a love hate relationship I have with you. As of this past week, I have completed three chemo treatments. I'll be running with my PICC line and bum bag (of the medical apparatus kind) and so won't be going for a PB; it's the thought and effort that counts after all. 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